just thinking.....when its wrong

when its wrong....have you ever had a crush/ thing for someone you're not suppose...what are you to do? I guess just to try to fight the feelings. i have no idea what I'm gonna do, hopefully he never find out how i really feel.its really sucks liking a friend. i heared that friends make the best lovers but i don't know. Every time we hang out i find myself having the crazy sexually thoughts about him i have no clue why i have never done this before i feel so lost right now. i cant even believe I'm writing this but i have to let this out or I'm gonna go crazy... lord help me